Eyes Wide Open
the complete collection of my art surrounding those weird eye surrealism things i do (and more will likely be added)
i do these drawings to try and capture complicated feelings that are sort of impossible to put into words and for some reason i can't stop
1. Bittersweet
this is the first one i ever did, and i personally think it turned out awesome. it took me a whole week. i was feeling a weird kind of sad, like there was happiness at the bottom of it. basically, i felt something and i drew it, and this was the result
2. Empty
when i made this, i felt kind of nice and fancy and refined, but there was a feeling that just said off, so yeah. and then i tried to show emptiness in it too, and once again, i think it turned out alright
3. Heat of the Moment
alright, so for this one, i did my best to draw confidence with hidden uncertainty and self doubt that recently i've been able to ignore. also it turned out real cool
4. Out of Control
the first one i did from a side view, which also turned out nice. but it's less being out of control and more not being in control if that makes sense, and so as a result the little world falls apart. so uh, yeah
5. Incomplete
looks really neat, this was my least favorite one to draw, because my determined one-track artist brain kept arguing with my symbolism brain. anyway this one's just feeling broken and incomplete and there's pieces that fit in the spaces but don't match the picture
6. Hidden Fears
okay so this one was inspired by my friend who was very clearly upset but didn't want to talk about it. also drawing every one of those diamonds was a pain in the ass, however my statement about "incomplete " still stands
7. Overwhelming Glitch
i really like the way this one turned out. first one that shows the whole mouth. basically just being overwhelmed and having your brain kind of glitch as a result. (the background was inspired by some random vision i had, courtesy of my brain)
8. Eyes Wide Open
the first poem of the bunch! i'm aware i forgot to type a word for one line but i already printed it so it's too late. anyway, pretty much the only piece in here so far that doesn't have some kind of pain surrounding it and is actually kind of hopeful as of right now
9. Indecisive and Torn
first one with more than one eye! yeah it's being unsure and indecisive but also it's just not knowing and just literally being torn apart inside, anyways
10. Restraint
i don't particularly mind the way it turned out, but i did have a different vision originally. anyway this one's just kind of me dying inside due to resisting the urge to murder someone because apparently i'm the only one in my entire school with a brain cell.
anyway that's all i have for now, so yeah
11. Pushed
oh geez okay so this one i was trying to be there for my friend and at one point i didn't realize that they needed space and they pushed me away and anyway while drawing this i couldn't stop thinking "more tears. no. no, not enough tears." it looks cool
12. Hopeful Uncertainty
i don't know how to describe it but i like how it turned out
13. Shattered
another poem! because i was sad! and i felt like it! yay!
welp that's it until i feel sad again
14. Down in Flames
okay so first of all i just finished this and i love the way it turned out. so yesterday i was talking to my therapist and we were talking about my relationship with one of my friends that i like and i said i saw three paths it could take. either nothing would come of it, it might actually turn out alright, or it would go down in flames, and based on the title and the description of number 11 i think y'all can figure out which path it took. also it’s just kind of the fear of “oh. this is really happening. the thing i’ve always feared is actually happening, and it’s too late to stop it.”
anyway i’ll definitely have a lot more surrealism of complicated, angsty emotions, so i can assure you that this is not the last one
